Loving Loudly, Letting Go Quietly
finding real peace
I’ve come to realize that I am loud when I love. It’s like second nature to me, pouring all of myself into the people I care about. But what I’ve noticed is that I don’t always get the same love or energy back. And honestly, it’s exhausting.
One reason I might not be having a big wedding is because I’m scared—scared that the energy and love I’ve put into people’s lives won’t be reciprocated on my big day. I know it’s not necessarily anyone’s fault—they aren’t doing it on purpose—but at this point, I feel tired. I don’t want to place expectations on people anymore.
So now, I’m choosing peace. I’ve realized that in order to achieve this peace, I need to stop expecting too much from people. That doesn’t mean my love has run out. In fact, I have a lot of love to give because I’m rooted and grounded in God’s love. And that love is more than enough.
But here’s the thing: even though I want to give love freely, it’s hard when you don’t get it back the same way. We’re human, and after a while, it’s hard not to feel something when the love you pour out isn’t returned in the same measure. I’m still figuring out how to deal with that. How do you keep giving love when it feels one-sided?
I want to be in a space where I can love without expecting the same love in return. And if someone doesn’t give me that same energy back, I want to be at peace with it. I want to love without strings attached.
This is my journey now—learning to love loudly without expecting anything in return. It’s a challenging, yet freeing, path. And while I may not have it all figured out, I’m grounded in the truth that I am already surrounded by an infinite source of love—God.
This post is coming after my birthday post, and I want to thank you all for the love shown on my birthday! Oh, and I know I owe you guys a little gist. LOL. Yes, I did go to a nearby lounge and had a great time with some grilled fish and a drink.
See you in the next one!
AJIKE 🤍